Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Crawling back in bed

We were watching 13 going on 30 tonight. I had forgotten how cute that movie was. There is a scene in the movie where the lead character finds herself emotionally lost. She goes home to her parents house and crawls into bed with her mother where she felt safe. I could not stop crying at that scene because it was so touching.
I have been emotionally crawling in bed with my mom for over 38 years. I run to her when I am lost and because of that I am a spoiled baby. I can't take care of myself and I crumble when things get out of whack. My Parents have always bailed me out. It is because of this, Jeff and I are seriously considering moving from Vegas. As much as it will rip me apart, I feel as though I need to do it to survive. There is no work here. Work that Jeff can do that will pay our bills. The business is at a standstill and I am working my ass off with my day job and with Avon.
The thought of moving scares the crap out of me. I have lived here for 34 years. I know where everything is and I am comfortable here. But realistically, if we are going to move, we have to do it soon. Alyssa is getting at that dangerous teen (you ruined my life) years where she will hate me if we move closer to her time in high school.
We will not move anywhere without a real job prospect. We are not the "I left with $35 in my pocket" type of people. But we have to make some serious decisions soon. Because it is getting crowded in my mothers "emotional" bed.
And to tell you the truth, my father never let me in the bed. I always had to be snuck in the room on my mom's side and sleep on the floor. It sucked

Monday, October 19, 2009

Trying not to rip my eyes out

I have a lot going on. Seriously. I have my regular job at www.zappos.com, I sell Avon www.youravon.com/cynditatum, and I help make my husbands business become something amazing. www.jtsfaco.com
I am also a mom, a wife, and a human. Thats right, a human.
I feel that I am failing at the last three because of the first three. This year has flown by and it hasn't been as fabulous as I had hoped. I have pretty high expectations about the tween years.
I feel really disconnected from the girls because Jeff is with them. I am trying to let go of a little control and trust him with their daily affairs. Baby steps. I even feel guilty about this freakin blog. I haven't updated in weeks. And it isn't that I feel so supierior that I think that I have people waiting to hear my every word, I just feel guilty to the one or two that actually do read it.

I just need to organize and mentally chill. Not chillax because that term makes me want to punch someone

Friday, September 18, 2009

Garage sales, Avon, and the streets Oh My

September has kind of sucked a little bit. We didn’t have any customers and it has kind of been hard. But we have come up with plans B through X. This weekend we are having a garage sale. I was blown away by the amount of crap we had stored in our garage and house. CRAP! I just want it out. The girls are having a lemonade stand too. So if you are in the Las Vegas area please by our shit. We live the Lakes, Sahara and Durango by the way.
I have also started to sell Avon. Yes…Avon. I sold it a few years ago and enjoyed it. It is a lot easier now. Everything is online. So I am doing that to help out. My only problem is buying things for my self. Please check out my site or I can mail you a book. It is one and the same. It just depends on what kind of service you prefer. www.youravon.com/cynditatum
If I make about $100 a month it is still an extra $100 a month
Jeff will be getting booths at the next few gun shows and he is in a hunt in October. We need to get him out there, more visual.
Any suggestions before I start working the streets?

Friday, August 21, 2009

The summer is over

It has been a huge bummer here that past couple of days. I feel so stressed and overwhelmed with home, work, and money issues. I hate this feeling.
This summer went so fast.
The girls are getting ready for school. They had a pretty rockin summer! The traveled cross country to visit cousins in the beginning, then went to camp where they swam all day and went on field trips. Last weekend we took our annual trip to Tuacahn to see Annie and Footloose. HERE are pictures.
Nobody is calling us about the business. It is driving me insane. And it makes me crazy sad. I am trying not to think about it.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

I have been really down on my home computer lately. First I got this horrible Malware virus that would not go away despite everything I read on the internet on it. It would let me open any of my programs and I wanted to slam it against a wall. But then I thought to myself… I have a friend who is a fricking computer genius and once again I called upon her and used her knowledge. Loraloo I love you!!!! She did it but I have some fragments still in my system. My Picasa 3 went on strike. It was angry that I could let such a horrible virus in. I fixed that too (thank you internet!) but now I am war torn and scared to use the computer for fear of something popping up or freezing. It is good and bad because I love my computer. I love working on projects and writing in my blog and surfing and lately nothing. It is good I guess now I spend more time with the fam.

My brother got Alyssa a kick ass computer. It was our first MAC. I was really anti Mac but it is such a cool lil thing I have grown to love it. Much like our dog, Samra. I hated her at first too.

Anyway. The reason I bring this up is because we are 100% back into our business again and all of my business files are on my computer and I could not get to them. It was really depressing me.

For any of you out there that have a gun or a gun collection that may or may not be antique or collectables and would like an appraisal either for personal record or home insurance reasons please let me know!

And spare me the “I hate guns” “I can’t believe you have guns in the house” etc…. lecture. It is old and I am tired of hearing about it. I had a very dear friend murdered with a knife and there aren’t any anti knife clubs. People, who want to kill, will. Idiots who do not teach gun safety and rules to their children have accidents and assholes that leave it in their car or dresser for the four year olds to find are just ignorant.
There… I am done. I worked in the news for a long time and have heard all of the stories. I get it. My husband hunts and is extremely passionate about it. But people give us crap all the time.
In conclusion….. Check this out.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Summer post.

I certainly hope to post more often but here is a little something for you.

This summer has been really freakin busy. The girls started camp a month ago!! We have been double booking for parties on the weekend and planning events for during the week. Never in my life have all been so busy.

The Amazon.com thing.
Unless you do not watch the news at all, and if that is the case, I have nothing to say to you. Then you most likely heard about Amazon purchasing Zappos.com. Everyone wanted to know details. The truth is, I don’t know. We are currently in a “quiet period” The deal isn’t done yet and we can’t talk about it until it is. The reason that everyone even knows yet is because Amazon is a publicly traded company and by law, must tell.
So what was it like here, as an employee? On Wednesday afternoon, Tony Hsieh sent us an email about the goings on. He asked us to take 20 minutes to read it carefully. It is actually right here if you would like to read it for yourself.
At first, I went into a mini panic. This is the third merger I have been through where “nothing will change” I kept cool but inside I was that scene from Airplane where they ask the passengers to remain calm and people start choking each other.

We had our “All Hands” meeting on Friday with Tony and the two other tops from Zappos and two top guys from Amazon.com. They answered some questions that had been emailed and informed us on a few other things. All in all, a fabulous meeting. Ask me about it again in November.

Alyssa got her braces today. As far as I know she is not in any kind of major pain but she can’t eat anything.
Jeff and I are in business mode 100% so if you know anyone that needs a gun appraisal, give us a jingle.


And so I don’t leave Emma out, she is fine too. :)

Monday, June 29, 2009


That is how many pictures Alyssa has on her camera from her trip and apparently 50 years before that. She never erases I found out. 600 pictures are actually from her trip down South and 569 are pictures of kittens and my Brother in laws place. She is actually an amazing photographer and she is trying to be “arty” It may take me a few days to go through all of these.
So yes, the family has arrived home safe and sound. This includes my parents who drove to Niagara Falls from Vegas. They had a great trip too.
I also arrived home safe and sound from Albany, GA. So it’s all good.. The Georgia Mosquitoes must have smelled us a million miles away because the four of us are minus pints of blood. I was stung by a wasp and bitten by no less than 232 ants. My body is a mess in more ways than the usual. Jeff legs are cut up and scabbed too. Alyssa got bitten by a horsefly. For those of you that do not know what a horsefly is, they look like the fly in the Cars video. Without the sunglasses.

And I can’t even begin to tell you about the crazy humidity. If you are outside for more than 30 minutes it was if a bucket of water got dumped on you. It was gross. Anyway, it was a long three weeks but we are together again.
I have a living room filled with dirty laundry, backpacks, duffel bags, ammo, guns, and coloring books.
And now there seems to be a death curse in Hollywood. I remember going to the skating rink and getting to watch the Thriller video. They would dim the lights, pull down a screen and we would sit on the rink. It was an awesome piece. And as far as Farrah goes, I had mentioned in my face book profile that when I was a child I wanted the Farrah “do”. But my mom made me get the Dorothy Hamiil instead. I was wondering how different my life would have been if I had the Farrah. I still had brown, mousy hair and baby poop brown eyes but I know I would have been popular. I am sure of it.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

So the family is gone. They left on Friday morning and made it to Tyler in two days. Faster than we ever have all the other times we ever went. It hit me last night and I was really sad. My parents are also gone. They actually drove to New York in four days.

I willl have stuff to do.... Yup, Don't worry about lil ol me. Busy as a bee. Last night I spent 5 hours cleaning out my kitchen cupboards. Exciting. I also went to participate in Zappos corporate challenge tug o war. I am feeling it in shoulders today. You should have seen the guys we were pulling against! They were the bouncers for Pure nightclub! We didn't have a chance. Here is a picture.

They were meaty.

Anyway I am kinda welcoming the quiet. Last weekend was crazy. The end of school programs, awards, recitals, birthday parties and everyday life. Here is some pictures from the week.

My friend, Nicole is having her baby this week. So I will be hanging with her.

Friday, May 15, 2009

25 years

25 years ago today I attended my very first concert. I was 14 and I went to see Van Halen's 1984 tour at the Thomas and Mack here in Las Vegas. The ticket was $15 and I still have it. I went with my friend Vicky and my boyfriend, Erick. I remember spending $12 for a t shirt and coming home to my mothers homemade egg rolls. I have no idea why I remember this so clearly.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Oh My

Lets be clear, with Facebook and twitter* and MySpace, You know every frickin move I make. Every thought and every random emotion. So why the hell would I update this friggin blog every day? Because 1. I dont have my space anymore. 2. I need it for REALLY deep thoughts. 3. It makes me feel smarter if even one person reads and cares what I think about something.

I have a busy bee. Jeff's last day at Sportsmans Warehouse was Thursday. He has been catching up on laundry ever since. That makes me happy. He walked the dog today. That makes Samra happy. He meets the girls after school. That makes them happy.

We have some plans. Right now we are taking a deep breath, and stopping to sniff the cork tree.

Thanks for hangin in there.


Monday, April 20, 2009

Perfect lil family

We had the most perfect night last night. It was kind of a Beaver Cleaver family evening. The day was bad with me having a horrible headache but it wore off by 5. We went to Fuddruckers and Golden Spoon to have yogurt. We all laughed and had a great time. It was very overdue.

Monday, April 13, 2009

I had a dream about black eyeliner last night. A complete waste of a dream. It leads me to believe that
1. I need a more exciting life
2. I need black eyeliner
3. I should stop eating Golden Spoon before I go to bed.
4. I have completely run out of blogging ideas.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Like.. OMG!!!

Hey there! So I am kinda refocused and ready to talk about what has been going down the past few weeks.
First of all, Sportsmans Warehouse is closing it's doors. In reality, the owner had no business opening up his two new stores in Las Vegas. Jeff worked at the one that opened in November. He will be out of work by early May. It was a huge blow at first. And lets be clear, it was a hoot being middle class for a few months. We will be golden though. He has already had a few offers at other places and we have his business to fall back on. Granted it may not be as much money as he is making now but we are survivors.

Second, I turned 39 on the 26th of March. to say that my birthday was fabulous would be an understatement. Last year was well, very bad. This year was full of love and happiness. A part of that was Zappos.com and and part of it was my brother and his family in town. I will get to that in a second. Lets talk about Zappos. My department decorated my desk, hired the Zappetts to sing to me, took me out for sushi, and just made me feel really loved. Here is video.

I got some amazing gifts. But the best gift of all was that my brother, Julia and baby Jordan were in town from New York.

It was the first time I got to hold the baby. It was everything I could have asked for and more. The girls loved their little cousin and he loved them. We had some professional pics made up and we had a really groovy time. Here are some of the pictures from the week.

Thank you for your patience.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009


I will update. I promise. I have several things going on. Some life changing. I am just a little overwhelmed at the moment. I cannot get my thoughts together. Love ya.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Deja Vu?

My cholesterol is 248. You should know that it is high and the range is 125-200. High Cholesterol runs in my family. It has nothing to do with my weight because my brother is a Freakin Vegan and weighs a buck o’ nine or something like that and he has high cholesterol. But I am doing something about my weight. I know, we have heard this all before but now I really care about it. I will be 40 years old in 1 year and 20 days. I don’t want to struggle with this anymore. It makes me sad. It puts me in a great depression. So I am truly starting a lifestyle change. Not just with my health but with other things as well.
I have a list of things I want to master in this next year.
1. Be healthy
2. Be more organized with my budget and bills
3. Be more involved with my kids emotionally and physically
4. Organize my kitchen and pantry
5. Figure out a laundry system that works for a family of four with way too many clothes
6. Walk at least 60 minutes a week. I hope to do more.
7. Relax and “let it go”
8. Understand that if people in my life do not accept me for who I am , they have the problem, NOT ME
9. Communication with my Honey Bunny
10. Let him do the things he wants like hunting because he truly loves it and not take it as personal hit that he doesn’t want to be with me. It is not about me.
11. It is not always about me.
12. Embrace the learning opportunities my employer is offering me.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Ikea makes my heart flutter

So, last week Jeff and I and Nicole and her husband, Eric drove to Covina, CA to specifically go to an IKEA store. Yes, I know. It sounds crazy but it was a fabulous trip.
But back up to the beginning of the weekend. On Friday the 13th Jeff came home with Roses and chocolate. He took out two of the roses to give to the girls. Samra helped herself to the rest of the chocolates the next day. On Saturday we met up with Nicole, Eric and Gage and my friends Kandace, her husband and two of her children for dinner at Buca De Beppo. We had a great time and we have decided to make it a monthly event. On Sunday, Eric and Nicole picked us up at 7:30 AM with their toy hauler and off we were to Pomona, CA where we stayed at a RV park. The IKEA was about 15 minutes away. After we hooked everything up and ate lunch we took off. I actually screamed when I saw the big blue building. It is pretty sad. What was sadder is that we stayed three hours that first day. That’s right, I said first day. We actually went back the next day and stayed two more hours. But I have no regrets. That store is friggin huge. I could not go more than once a year. It is exhausting. But we had a blast. Jeff and I are slowly putting all of our goods together. Our house will ROCK when we are done.
Jeff has a shooting competition next week in Ely, NV. He is really excited. Alyssa is sleeping over a friend’s house on Friday so it will be me and Emma for a night. We might go to a fancy shmancy restaurant or get drunk and pick up sailors. I am not sure yet.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Who ate the toppings off the pizza or why the dogs new name is farticus

I didn't cook the entire weekend. We either ate out or ordered in. We NEVER do that. And we paid dearly for it. We were bloated and disgusting all weekend. We ordered pizza on Saturday. I don't eat pizza because I am lactose intolerant so right there I should have known. I ordered Jeff a "Peez-illa" Which is pizza with everything. I saw a lot of green peppers and sausage on it. Well we were eating in the living room and watching TV when apparently Samra went into the kitchen to investigate the pizza. And apparently lick all the toppings off of three slices. Puppy had a really swirly tummy for about 30 minutes. At the time we were confused on why she kept grunting and shifting positions. When Jeff got up to put his plate in the sink he saw why. But it was too late. Samra was letting go of some of her discomfort and it was painful for all of us. Alyssa kept calling her Farticus. I don't think Samra has learned her listen since she went through the garbage last night.

Friday, February 6, 2009

So my youngest turned 8 yesterday. Emma Grace is a big girl now. Birthday week has begun. On her birthday night (last night) we have a family dinner. I told her she can go anywhere in the city. She chose Krazy Buffet. A Chinese buffet we have gone for lunch a few times. But that is where she wanted to go. Funny enough, there was another birthday going on for another little girl. Who knew? She got her gifts from my parents last night and we had a nice time. Tonight we have 6 kids meeting us to see “Coraline.”
Emma’s birth story is the best. I may have told this story before so I am sorry. The date is February 5th, 2001. Alyssa was 3 ½ and didn’t really “get” that there was going to be another kid coming soon. At the time she was going to a private Jewish preschool and taking karate. My doctor had planned the delivery so it would best for both of our schedules. I wanted to make sure I had a babysitter for Alyssa.
Emma was due on February 14th. So this was quite a few days before. Two of my best friends in the world were planning on being in the delivery room with us. Nikki and Nicole. Along with Jeff and my mom, we had quite the party going on. Nikki put glitter on my face and kept trying to pamper me. Little did she know at the time, I hate being touched on my face. Anyway, they kept me in good spirits and we laughed a lot. Which was good because almost exactly a month earlier, Nikki’s mom had passed away and her being with me on that day meant a lot to me.
My father was going to pick up Alyssa after karate class and keep her entertained until we called him with baby news. My mother was nervous about this because Alyssa was only three and her vocabulary at the time consisted of Teletubbies jargon and 101 Dalmatians. She was concerned about my father losing his mind trying to keep her happy. So it was all planned out. My mom said that if I did not give birth by 7:30 PM she would leave to get Alyssa. She was pretty upset because she wanted to be there when Emma flew out. Luckily enough she popped out at 7 ish. Just in time. My gals made me laugh so hard that the doctor said that if I gave one more hardy laugh that the baby will come. That made me laugh harder and swoosh! Baby Emma, looking exactly like her sister. Jeff even said “holy Crap! She looks just like Alyssa!” It was a fabulous birth. Nikki did have the Life/ Death realization of her mother and had to leave the room right after in tears. A nurse saw her crying and thought that something had gone wrong inside and rushed in. But it was all good. My dad showed up with Alyssa at around 8 PM. She was in her little karate outfit and was very shy about her baby sister. She thought it was pretty funny that Emma sucked on her finger when she stuck it in her mouth. Nikki and Nicole are the best to have in your birthing room and they may be for hire. They definitely take your mind off what is going on.
It seems like yesterday. I know that is cliché but it is true. My baby is not a baby anymore.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Little girls

We got Alyssa a cell phone in the middle of 5th grade. Jeff and I didn’t get a cell phone until we were 27 but that is not the point of this story. We got her one because at the time we had reconsidered our house phone and just wanted mobile phones. I thought it was important that she have a phone as well in case of an emergency. Her first cell phone was a “hammy-down” from Jeff. She was very excited and proud and would call me every day to tell me that she has connected with Emma and they were now walking to my car so I could pick them up. She really only wanted her friends to see her on a cell phone. She begged and pleaded to have a custom ringer and she chose some High School Musical 2 song.
Jump ahead to last night. Jeff got a new cell (T-mobile G1- *sweet* phone) and gave Alyssa another “hammy – down”. This time she wanted, Katy Perry “Hot and Cold” for her ringer. Does the vast difference in ringer choice in one year make me a little sad? Kinda. She is not a baby anymore. She is growing up and her priorities right now are fashion and hip hop dance. She wants to wear mascara and gloss and she has better fashion sense than me. She is tall and thin, blonde with blue eyes. How I ended up with this creature is beyond me.
Emma is turning 8 next week. I can officially stop saying that it is still “baby weight” I am carrying. Pork chop is also an amazing being to me. She is beautiful with red hair, freckles, and green eyes. She looks like Strawberry Shortcake.

She is a deep thinker and very smart. She can either spend an hour watching Hannah Montana or spend an hour completing a suduko puzzle. Which she does correctly by the way. I can listen to her for hours and never get bored. She is very concerned about equal rights for fairies and is mildly obsessed with them. She has fairy gardens all over the house and worries that the tooth fairy works too hard.
I really dig my kids.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Zappos! #23 on Fortune Mag best companies to work for

If you click on the picture you can see where I was standing! I put a red circle around me! This is also about 30 minutes before the big crazy snowstorm we had!

Check out the magazine here!

The actual article is here!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Weekend update

1. Clean out garage
2. Sleep until 9
3. Make sweet monkey love to my husband

This was a list of what I wanted to do this weekend while my parents took my girls to Laguna Beach, California for the long weekend. Not one happened. Jeff got really sick on Friday night and it continued throughout the weekend. We did manage to go and have sushi on Friday and go to our Safari Club International banquet on Saturday. We even managed to go out for dinner and breakfast on Sunday and Monday morning. So we took care of our appetite but that is about it.
The girl had a blast. It was a grandparent’s weekend. My parents went with their good friends and their grandchildren too. It was pretty awesome that they did that. My mom is slightly nutty about my girls and would buy them both pink ponies if she could.
Anyway, the weekend is over and today is a WONDERFUL day. We have a new president!!!!! YEE FRICKIN HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


I used to really love shoes. I mean it, I had a sick and crazy love of shoes. At one time in my life I think I had 10 pairs of black shoes alone. After I became a mommy my shoes fetish downgraded considerably. I felt more comfortable in Birkinstocks and flip flops. I still have a pair of Birkies but I wear more than flip flops now that I live at Zappos.com land. Not a good place for a recovering shoe addict. I have bought many shoes since the start of my employment here. I have also sent out many 20% coupons for friends and family. :) (email me for details)
Now B.C. (Before children) I wore a size 8 ½. After Alyssa I wore a 9 and now I wear a 9 1/2 – 10 depending on the shoe. Working here we actually had a “shoe size” tutorial during our training. The guy told us that many people go up a size when their shoes don’t fit but what they actually need is a wider shoe. So I tried that and purchased 9 1.2’s in a wide. They fit like a glove. I highly suggest it.
I heart Zappos.com

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Friday, January 9, 2009

So we are back. We had a really nice time. The RV rental went well. The RV is very loud inside and everything shimmies and shakes and can really drive you mental. So the first day was a bit crazy. We couldn’t pick up the RV until 1 PM. We get to the place and there are 5 people in front of us and they tell us to come back in an hour to an hour and a half. So we didn’t even get checked in until 3:00. After we get that all settled they inform us that we have to wait another 30 to 45 minutes because they just fixed a crack in the windshield. We didn’t even get back home until 4 PM and by the time we got everything packed and on the road it was 5 PM! Already dark and FREEZING in the back of the RV. The kids were bundled up and I was very tense. We decided to go a different route this year. We were afraid of snow in Gallup, NM. Well, apparently we went through a time continuum and time stopped altogether. It took us about 1000 hours to get to Texas. We actually drove from 9AM to 4:30 AM on the 2nd day and we were STILL not at our destination.

MAJOR Monkey butt.

But we did arrive in Tyler, TX eventually. The kids had a blast and I got to meet a cousin of Jeff’s who I fell in love with. She and her husband were awesome and I wanted to be with them 24/7.
We came home the old way and made it back in two days. We hit a lot of snow in AZ but were in our own bed that night. Sleeping in your own bed after a certain amount of time s almost a religious experience. The next day was spent cleaning out the RV which smelled a lot like armpit. At some time while driving home Alyssa decided she wanted a pickle and didn’t close the jar tight enough and it spilled all over the mini fridge. So the whole place smelled like armpit and pickle. Parmpit.
I have about 23,498 pictures to upload so give me a few days. There is actually a link to my mother in laws pictures on my picture page in the top right corner of this blog. That should hold you. FYI: Samra was amazing! She slept on her pillow between Jeff and me on the ride and ran and ran until she passed out on the pasture