Thursday, June 30, 2005

So, I waited and waited and waited and finally I gots me a job! I will be doing activities again for seniors. I feel that it is where I belong, where I am comfortable and where they offered me a job! I start in two weeks and I feel pretty good about it. A little nervous and a little nutty. Thank you to all the people that were patient with me and were there for me. It will still be tough the next three weeks because I probably wont be getting a paycheck for another month but we can get over it. I hope we can. I wish we were ahead but we are starting way behind. BUT we are starting.  

Saturday, June 25, 2005

The last entry for awhile

I have nothing to write about. No job or good news. I am in constant pain and I cannot see nor hear. I am so bummed. I have applied to 32 places in the last 2 weeks. 32. 32 places that looked at my resume laughed hysterically and probably threw them away. 32 people looked at my resume and didn’t even think I qualified to get an interview. I have tested for jobs for the City of Las Vegas as well as the State of Nevada. I failed the Nevada test and I am having a hard time thinking positively for the city. I am feeling so low right now I am having a hard time getting out of bed. This has been an extremely crappy year. Starting from November. .

Therefore, this is my last entry until I have something good to write. Thanks for reading.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

I am not feeling really good.  My ear is bad, my eye hurts and I have been seeing a little bit of double vision. The medicine that I take for the ear is knocking me on my butt. My back hips are killing me. So I will write soon. Right now........... PFFFTTTTTtthhh.

Monday, June 20, 2005

uh oh

Well it happened. The seperation of the ages. Alyssa's best friend is Abbe's daughter, Julia who is 5. Alyssa is 8 as we know and Emma of course is fabulous 4. Now, we have known Abbe and the girls for four years. Ever since Emma was 3 months old. The girls all love each other very much and the age difference between Julia and Alyssa was never a problem. But Abbe and I saw it last weekend. The seperation. Alyssa wanted to hang more with Allie, Abbe's 11 year old and her friend, Ashley rather than  Julia and Emma.  Abbe noticed it first. Alyssa was too "old" to hang. Which suited Emma and Alyssa just fine.They played great together. It makes me kind of sad because Abbe's house and her daughters is sort of a "safe Haven" I know them, I love them and I just know that Alyssa is going to want to hang with friends from her class now. "Others" with parents that I don't know.  She will soon start with the " How comes??" The "How come we don't have clean white carpet like...?" "How come ... ..'s mommy wears makeup and does her hair and you don't?" At Abbe's house all I get is how come we don't have this cereal and how come we don't have this toothpaste. It was manageable "how comes" And of course the "how come their house and garage is so clean?" I don't mind those. These anonymous mommies will anger me before I even get to know them. Alyssa is just too old and too cool for her own good. I knew it was a mistake getting her that bra.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Happy Fathers Day!

First to my Big daddy - Thank you for the intelligence, the street smarts, the sense of Humor, the creativeness, the curiosity and the advice to “put more lipstick on”. And of course the cool Ebay stuff. You can be a pretty cool cat, you just need to relax a bit and enjoy life. Happy Fathers day.

Second to my baby daddy. You are an amazing father. You are funny, sensitive, strong, and loveable. You are the girls' shining star. you are their hero, their prince and their cherry on top. They love you so much because you deserve to be loved like that. You hang their moon. You are so much more than just a father, You are a daddy. I love you.

Friday, June 17, 2005

My eardrum blew again. I can't believe this. I am literally walking cockeyed. My left eye is out, my right ear is out and my smell isn't what it used to be. Not one person called me from my resumes. nope, none, nada. Yee Fricken Ha.

If only there was a legal and moral way to make $100 an hour.If only I wasn't to stupid to get caught doing anything that paid $100 an hour. I am in one of those moods again.  A pissy one. If I don't get a job soon I will be forced to selll my body for Ramen noodles. I hope to hear back today from some of the 1000 of resumes I have sent out this week.

Alyssa got her zone variance for the school she is now attending. It is not really her school but it it is a great school and right next door to Emma's day care. I love it and I have had to beg and plead to the principal every year to get Alyssa in.

My ear is bothering me again. I am running out of senses. Next will be my sense of touch. My eye is Ok but that is it OK. I still can't see clear but they did tell me 3-4 months. I got a letter from the eye bank telling me that I can possibly contact the donor family if they have chosen to be contacted.I may do that.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Alyssa had a really cute patriotic performance yesterday at her school. It was only the 2nd graders. They signed a few America songs. I was really far away but the pictures are here. A couple of guys from Nellis Air Force base were there to demonstrate the 13 flag fold. It was pretty cool. The pictures suck because I was so far away.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Life is back to normal. I keep having these mini anxiety attacks that I still have a party to throw. Alyssa went back to school yesterday and her friends told her that they all had a great time.

Once again I am in full force looking for a job. Sent out 5 resumes yesterday.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

my hips hurt

Just like a senior. Yesterday was the party. Never again will I have a party at my house.

1. I hate people in my house. Abbe can tell you that is true, She has only been here about 4 times and I have known her for 5 years.

2. 8 year olds are nuts.

3. I don't want to be responsible for other peoples kids.

4. When Alyssa has her friends over, she is nuts.

The party was fun, for her. We had a giant birthday cake jumpy house, a treasure hunt, pinata, and a sandbox treasure hunt game. I think she had fun. I don't have any pictures yet because Jeff took my digital for his shoot so I had a disposable. The boy she has a crush on, Max, came with his sister. Alyssa was beaming but his sister was very protective of him. I timed everything perfectly but I couldn't have done it without Abbe and Nicole's help. Everybody picked their kid up right at 6. Yee Ha.

Jeff finished his shoot with shrimp, lobster, and crab. He had a great time but said it was poorly organized. He met a bunch of actors and made a lot of great contacts with some professional shooters and important sponsors. He is trying to get a local Bass Pro shooting team together. I will keep you updated on that.


Friday, June 10, 2005

sad bunny

I had a moment of great sadness today. For about an hour I couldn't stop crying. I was tired, stressed and my eye hurt a little. It's been a bad week. On Monday I got this really bad, short haircut that I am too ashamed to even show you. On Tuesday, I had this amazing interview with this amazing place that had an amazing salary but today they called to tell me that they chose someone else. On Wednesday, I had this test for a city job and went the wrong way which led me on I-95 which was down to one lane. I spent 30 minutes looking for a spot to park and missed the test by ten minutes. I have spent over three million dollars for this party tomorrow.

I am better now. I have gotten over the sadness and I am now focused on the party for my 8 year old. In other news, THIS is the celebrity that was on Jeff's team. You know him from THIS. I saw the roster and I really use the term Celebrity lightly. SHE was the biggest there.  He had fun though. The rest of the shoot is tomorrow.

Thursday, June 9, 2005

Happy 8th Birthday Alyssa

Alyssa is 8 years old. That means that 8 years ago my water broke the night before and we rushed to the hospital to have a baby. She came the next day at 4:16 PM. Baby girl Alyssa. She is amazing, beautiful and smart.

Here is a picture of her doing her new favorite hobby, Archery. She is good too!!!

Happy birthday baby girl!!!! Mommy and Daddy love you VERY MUCH!!! Emma does too even though she shows it a little differently than us.

Also, Happy birthday to one of my best friends in the world, Nikki. I miss you so much! I hope that you are having a blast being old like me!

Tuesday, June 7, 2005

Busy week, I am trying to tie up loose ends with Alyssa's party. We have 11 confirmed children but this is Vegas. No one knows how to RSVP so we may get a few stragglers. This party has turned more into a pirate party then a mermaid party. I have another doctors appointment tomorrow. Hopefully I can cut down on some of the drops.  Jeff is getting very nervous about the shoot.

Monday, June 6, 2005

The longest day of the year

Was yesterday. UGH! The recital was yesterday. We had to drop Emma off at 12:00 The show started at 1:00. We scrambled to get good seats since it was general admission. Thank goodness we had a spry 8 year old to leap around like a gazelle and hop in front of the seniors to save us good seats in the third row. My father chose to come on his own. He said that watching children dance all day was not his "thing" He came at 1PM for Emma's dance and left at 1:05 when Emma finished. He then came back at 5 PM for Alyssa's show and left at 5:20 when Alyssa finished. 

So let me tell you about the shows. Emma's 1PM show were all the toddlers that take ballet. It was painful yet adorable. 10-15 little deers in headlights. It was pretty short. about 35-40 minutes long. But after the show we had roses for her and Alyssa gave them to her. She was blown away. She loved them. Especially coming from Alyssa. We left there around 2PM then went to eat at Olive Garden since Alyssa didn't have to be at her show until 4:00. Her show was a little different. It was more, with the better students. It was amazing. Ballet is a true art form that takes dedication and patience. These teens were just beautiful. Her show was 2 hours long complete with an intermission! But it was very good. I know he doesn't want me to write this but my father lost it when Alyssa came out. He put his sunglasses on because he didn't want anyone to see him crying. He lost it when Emma came out too but it was a combo cry/laughter thing. It was amazing to see my little girls dance their heart out. I remember my first recital. I was about four and at the end, all of the dancers came out and got flowers from their parents. My mom didn't know that there were supposed to bring flowers so they sent my brother up with a five dollar bill to give me. Ahhh. It is memories like that that make my heart pitter patter. When I told Alyssa that story she said that she would've wanted the five dollar bill instead of the roses that she got. My baby. She so loves money.

SO we were at the hall from 11:30 AM - 7:30 PM!!! A long friggin day!

 Anyway, The pictures are here. My camera battery died right before Alyssa got her roses but my mom took some with her ordinary camera. Those pictures will be developed in a couple of months!

Sunday, June 5, 2005

It's a Ballet weekend

I am exhausted!!! Yesterday was the 2nd dress rehearsal for ballet. Emma's in the morning and Alyssa's in the afternoon. We were there from 9 AM to 1:00 PM They did their dances and checked placement on the stage and took group pictures. It is pretty tough to wrangle 20 3 and 4 year olds.  Today is the actual recital. Emma's in the morning and Alyssa's in the afternoon. Pictures will follow.

Friday, June 3, 2005


It is 4:24 in the morning. Tweep! Why is it that when the battery on a smoke alarm goes, it starts tweeping at 3:00 AM?? Every five minutes, loudly. That is how long I have been up.  I have also been up worrying. I hate that. I worry and stress about everything. It has been a month since I brought in a paycheck and Jeff is busting his butt doing all the work. Tweep! I have a couple of prospects in the next few days that I pray will turn out.  Ebay is a steady flow of nothing and I can't rely on it. Tweep! The dogs are nervous right now because of the Tweep! They are restless because I am up and now they want to play. 

Emma wanted to know what Yoda's last name was. Jeff told her that it was just Yoda and she wasn't happy Tweep! with that so she gave him the last name of Yodi. Yoda Yodi. She has been kinda obsessed with Star Wars because the marketing has been all over TV. She calls Darth Vader Doc Ador and Tweep! she likes him. Emma also hit her head on a pole today at Preschool so her thinking may be a little fuzzy. I can't believe that I was Alyssa's age when I saw Star Wars for the first time. 1977. My brother was obsessed with it and slept on Darth Vader sheets or something. Tweep! I am gonna try to go back to sleep for a few more hours.

Thursday, June 2, 2005

I was just looking over my 100 things about me list and realize that is is outdated. Jeff doesn't drive a cab anymore. He in charge of the Fine Gun Room at Bass Pro Shops. And with that comes a few perks. Other than a dazzling 40% discount, they are sponsoriing him for the upcoming Celebrity Shoot. They paid his $500 entrance fee and are bombarding him with the Redhead brand clothing line. He will be decked out in shoes, pants, shirt and hats. PMC, his old employer, is also sponsoring him with the guns. He is very excited. He hasn't competed since he left PMC. He is a very good shot. He has several plaques and prizes for placing. Cowboys are so sexy. The bummer is that he will be missing Alyssa's birthday party on Saturday. But on the plus side, he will be hobnobbing with Tom Selleck.

Wednesday, June 1, 2005

eye see you

Went back to the doctor today. Last week I saw three feet, this week six, so it is getting better. He also gave me some of my drops in samples which saves on prescriptions. Samples rock. We were in the waiting room for TWO hours!!! They had Gilligans Island playing. The movie where they get rescued. It was so bad it was sad. Sad and funny. Why didn't Mr and Mrs Howell ever give the Skipper. Gilligan or the professor any new clothes to wear?