Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Crawling back in bed

We were watching 13 going on 30 tonight. I had forgotten how cute that movie was. There is a scene in the movie where the lead character finds herself emotionally lost. She goes home to her parents house and crawls into bed with her mother where she felt safe. I could not stop crying at that scene because it was so touching.
I have been emotionally crawling in bed with my mom for over 38 years. I run to her when I am lost and because of that I am a spoiled baby. I can't take care of myself and I crumble when things get out of whack. My Parents have always bailed me out. It is because of this, Jeff and I are seriously considering moving from Vegas. As much as it will rip me apart, I feel as though I need to do it to survive. There is no work here. Work that Jeff can do that will pay our bills. The business is at a standstill and I am working my ass off with my day job and with Avon.
The thought of moving scares the crap out of me. I have lived here for 34 years. I know where everything is and I am comfortable here. But realistically, if we are going to move, we have to do it soon. Alyssa is getting at that dangerous teen (you ruined my life) years where she will hate me if we move closer to her time in high school.
We will not move anywhere without a real job prospect. We are not the "I left with $35 in my pocket" type of people. But we have to make some serious decisions soon. Because it is getting crowded in my mothers "emotional" bed.
And to tell you the truth, my father never let me in the bed. I always had to be snuck in the room on my mom's side and sleep on the floor. It sucked

Monday, October 19, 2009

Trying not to rip my eyes out

I have a lot going on. Seriously. I have my regular job at, I sell Avon, and I help make my husbands business become something amazing.
I am also a mom, a wife, and a human. Thats right, a human.
I feel that I am failing at the last three because of the first three. This year has flown by and it hasn't been as fabulous as I had hoped. I have pretty high expectations about the tween years.
I feel really disconnected from the girls because Jeff is with them. I am trying to let go of a little control and trust him with their daily affairs. Baby steps. I even feel guilty about this freakin blog. I haven't updated in weeks. And it isn't that I feel so supierior that I think that I have people waiting to hear my every word, I just feel guilty to the one or two that actually do read it.

I just need to organize and mentally chill. Not chillax because that term makes me want to punch someone

Friday, September 18, 2009

Garage sales, Avon, and the streets Oh My

September has kind of sucked a little bit. We didn’t have any customers and it has kind of been hard. But we have come up with plans B through X. This weekend we are having a garage sale. I was blown away by the amount of crap we had stored in our garage and house. CRAP! I just want it out. The girls are having a lemonade stand too. So if you are in the Las Vegas area please by our shit. We live the Lakes, Sahara and Durango by the way.
I have also started to sell Avon. Yes…Avon. I sold it a few years ago and enjoyed it. It is a lot easier now. Everything is online. So I am doing that to help out. My only problem is buying things for my self. Please check out my site or I can mail you a book. It is one and the same. It just depends on what kind of service you prefer.
If I make about $100 a month it is still an extra $100 a month
Jeff will be getting booths at the next few gun shows and he is in a hunt in October. We need to get him out there, more visual.
Any suggestions before I start working the streets?

Friday, August 21, 2009

The summer is over

It has been a huge bummer here that past couple of days. I feel so stressed and overwhelmed with home, work, and money issues. I hate this feeling.
This summer went so fast.
The girls are getting ready for school. They had a pretty rockin summer! The traveled cross country to visit cousins in the beginning, then went to camp where they swam all day and went on field trips. Last weekend we took our annual trip to Tuacahn to see Annie and Footloose. HERE are pictures.
Nobody is calling us about the business. It is driving me insane. And it makes me crazy sad. I am trying not to think about it.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

I have been really down on my home computer lately. First I got this horrible Malware virus that would not go away despite everything I read on the internet on it. It would let me open any of my programs and I wanted to slam it against a wall. But then I thought to myself… I have a friend who is a fricking computer genius and once again I called upon her and used her knowledge. Loraloo I love you!!!! She did it but I have some fragments still in my system. My Picasa 3 went on strike. It was angry that I could let such a horrible virus in. I fixed that too (thank you internet!) but now I am war torn and scared to use the computer for fear of something popping up or freezing. It is good and bad because I love my computer. I love working on projects and writing in my blog and surfing and lately nothing. It is good I guess now I spend more time with the fam.

My brother got Alyssa a kick ass computer. It was our first MAC. I was really anti Mac but it is such a cool lil thing I have grown to love it. Much like our dog, Samra. I hated her at first too.

Anyway. The reason I bring this up is because we are 100% back into our business again and all of my business files are on my computer and I could not get to them. It was really depressing me.

For any of you out there that have a gun or a gun collection that may or may not be antique or collectables and would like an appraisal either for personal record or home insurance reasons please let me know!

And spare me the “I hate guns” “I can’t believe you have guns in the house” etc…. lecture. It is old and I am tired of hearing about it. I had a very dear friend murdered with a knife and there aren’t any anti knife clubs. People, who want to kill, will. Idiots who do not teach gun safety and rules to their children have accidents and assholes that leave it in their car or dresser for the four year olds to find are just ignorant.
There… I am done. I worked in the news for a long time and have heard all of the stories. I get it. My husband hunts and is extremely passionate about it. But people give us crap all the time.
In conclusion….. Check this out.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Summer post.

I certainly hope to post more often but here is a little something for you.

This summer has been really freakin busy. The girls started camp a month ago!! We have been double booking for parties on the weekend and planning events for during the week. Never in my life have all been so busy.

The thing.
Unless you do not watch the news at all, and if that is the case, I have nothing to say to you. Then you most likely heard about Amazon purchasing Everyone wanted to know details. The truth is, I don’t know. We are currently in a “quiet period” The deal isn’t done yet and we can’t talk about it until it is. The reason that everyone even knows yet is because Amazon is a publicly traded company and by law, must tell.
So what was it like here, as an employee? On Wednesday afternoon, Tony Hsieh sent us an email about the goings on. He asked us to take 20 minutes to read it carefully. It is actually right here if you would like to read it for yourself.
At first, I went into a mini panic. This is the third merger I have been through where “nothing will change” I kept cool but inside I was that scene from Airplane where they ask the passengers to remain calm and people start choking each other.

We had our “All Hands” meeting on Friday with Tony and the two other tops from Zappos and two top guys from They answered some questions that had been emailed and informed us on a few other things. All in all, a fabulous meeting. Ask me about it again in November.

Alyssa got her braces today. As far as I know she is not in any kind of major pain but she can’t eat anything.
Jeff and I are in business mode 100% so if you know anyone that needs a gun appraisal, give us a jingle.

And so I don’t leave Emma out, she is fine too. :)

Monday, June 29, 2009


That is how many pictures Alyssa has on her camera from her trip and apparently 50 years before that. She never erases I found out. 600 pictures are actually from her trip down South and 569 are pictures of kittens and my Brother in laws place. She is actually an amazing photographer and she is trying to be “arty” It may take me a few days to go through all of these.
So yes, the family has arrived home safe and sound. This includes my parents who drove to Niagara Falls from Vegas. They had a great trip too.
I also arrived home safe and sound from Albany, GA. So it’s all good.. The Georgia Mosquitoes must have smelled us a million miles away because the four of us are minus pints of blood. I was stung by a wasp and bitten by no less than 232 ants. My body is a mess in more ways than the usual. Jeff legs are cut up and scabbed too. Alyssa got bitten by a horsefly. For those of you that do not know what a horsefly is, they look like the fly in the Cars video. Without the sunglasses.

And I can’t even begin to tell you about the crazy humidity. If you are outside for more than 30 minutes it was if a bucket of water got dumped on you. It was gross. Anyway, it was a long three weeks but we are together again.
I have a living room filled with dirty laundry, backpacks, duffel bags, ammo, guns, and coloring books.
And now there seems to be a death curse in Hollywood. I remember going to the skating rink and getting to watch the Thriller video. They would dim the lights, pull down a screen and we would sit on the rink. It was an awesome piece. And as far as Farrah goes, I had mentioned in my face book profile that when I was a child I wanted the Farrah “do”. But my mom made me get the Dorothy Hamiil instead. I was wondering how different my life would have been if I had the Farrah. I still had brown, mousy hair and baby poop brown eyes but I know I would have been popular. I am sure of it.